ME.. THE WORKAHOLIC....

I’m back on my blog. It’s a perfect Sunday. The weather is so gloomy.. rainy & cloudy. You can cuddle up on your bed with a good book, or have a good bath and watch a nice movie. Why? Cz it’s Sunday… What was I doing on Sunday?? Well.. I just returned home from work.. Work?? Yes.. as in WORK WORK.. Yesterday too.. it was just work for me. Next weekend also.. it will be work for me. Every weekend till this year is over.. it will again be work for me.

My last post on my blog was about being departed. Plus to that, my life these days is all about, being a workaholic. Ok.. I didn’t ask for this. I hate it. But it turned out to be that way. It’s cz of this new project with impossible deadlines and tremendous amount of work. I work everday from 9 in the morning till 9.30 at night. That’s more than 12 hours, right? Plus.. weekends too. The QA team is giving a maximum effort to happen this dream-of-a-project a reality. The future still looks cloudy though.

I don’t get to listen to music… watch movies.. read books… surf the net… call my friends… have a good chat with them.. go out in a weekend with friends and have a good time.. I come home around 11 at night, and I don’t even get to talk with the people at home. When my friends buzz me through chat or call me when I’m at work, every time I have to tell them that I’m busy and I can’t talk right now. That’s something I hate doing. I used to have time for my friends no matter how busy I am. But now?? Sigh.. I just HATE doing it. Good thing is, my friends understand. I’m so glad about it.

When it’s Friday.. usually, the feeling you have is ‘Yeppiii.. the weekend is coming’.. But for me… Friday is just one numb feeling. I always know that I have to come to work the next day. I think this is the toughest time in my job history. All I do these days is hoping and living.. thinking that something good will happen in the end… which I don’t see so far. The girl on the move is having a bad time.. and she needs a good life. What’s the use of having a job if you don’t have a LIFE out of it? Getting out to somewhere soon, looking for a good LIFE.. That’s a promise. Friends, it’s important to have a good job. It’s more important to get a good job with a good salary. But the most important thing is, living your life happily… 1st place… the job.. 2^nd place.. Cheers!

DEPARTED....

Having to depart from your loved ones is a painful experience. It’s a known and a common fact for every human being. We KNOW that we can’t be forever with the ones we love, but even though we know that fact, we get the pain of departing, when that moment comes.

When I was schooling, I was getting ready for that moment since I was in year 12. We were having so much fun in school. You meet your friends 5 days a week. You spend 6 hours per day with them, but when the school life is over, you don’t get to see them.. or meet them like the way you used to be. I had a hard time getting over it. Then came the times at the campus. I loved the campus life. It was as floating as a free bird in the air with your fellow bird friends. Tough times were there, but I enjoyed it a lot. Lectures.. having meals together.. lab classes.. tutorials… studying together for exams.. playing cards during the breaks… and many more. It was fun. But even so, I knew that it’ll have to end some day, and we the next step is to find a good job and go ahead with life. I was getting ready for departing from my friends, slowly & slowly. I kind of got used to the idea and I got over with it in a cool way, cz I prepared for it.

I’m a kind of a person who doesn’t want to be left alone. I always want company. Maybe it’s not a very good idea, but I hate to be alone. Most of my friends are married now, and a few of them are still single. I get to go out and have fun with them, still. But I know that once they get married, the fun we have, will be limited in some way. It’ll never be the same again.

Last week, I started to feel this certain feeling of being departed again. I used to work in the Kolpetty branch of my company, where I had loads of friends. But I had to come to the main location of the company, because of a new project allocation. I was so glad cz I have my best friends in the company there. So I was never feeling alone. I missed my friends in Kolpetty branch.. but.. well… I had very good friends in this place, so.. work was fun at this place. 3 weeks passed by, and I was allocated to another project. It’s like a horror movie, cz this 3rd location, is the most isolated location out of all 3, and it’s too far away from the other 2, so that people can’t access it that easily. Worst, I only knew a very few people in this particular place. I had no excuse to stay back. The people in the project were OK, and I got a satisfactory role to play in the project… Soooo… finally… I had to move to the haunted place.

It’s hard to work there without a reason to be happy. Work is hectic, and I stay in once place all day cz I don’t have friends to meet up and talk. Sometimes I eat alone… and go down to grab something to eat and I eat it alone. There are a few good friends, I hang around with them.. But it’s never the same. For the moment, I feel so isolated and lost. Maybe this feeling will.. sort of.. go away a little. But it’s kinda very hard for me right now. Keeping my fingers crossed to go back to my ‘home’ with my friends.. I hope the time will fly..so the project will end soon..

LOVIN IT..!!

Photography!! It’s a passion, isn’t it?? An art… a way to express feelings.. beauty.. and tranquility. They say.. pictures can speak. True enough, they do.. don’t they? I can’t remember when I first fell in love with photography. Come to think of it… I loved it even when I was so small. I was so curious about the gadgetry of the camera, who owned by the cameraman who visited our home, to take our b’day pics.

Even when I was having a manual camera, I was always keen to capture all I can, no matter where I go. But the problem was.. I always run out of reels! DUH!! I hated it and hated it. Then came the digital cameras. My sis got hold of a Sony. It was 6MP and 3X, but superb picture quality. But whenever she’s not around, the cam was missing too. So.. I wanted to get myself one. I wanted a good brand… excellent zooming and a good MP quality.

I got what I wanted, got it from Dubai through a good friend of mine… and I’m just loving n loving it. It’s a Canon PowerShot S5 IS. It has what I always wanted..

• 12x optical zoom lens with Ultrasonic Motor (USM) and UD lens
• Optical Image Stabilizer
• 8.0 Megapixel CCD
• DIGIC III with advanced Noise Reduction technology and Face Detection for stills and movies
• Red-Eye Correction in playback
• 2.5” high-resolution vari-angle LCD
• Long-play VGA movies with stereo sound and Photo in Movie
• 22 shooting modes including full manual control and 0cm Super Macro
• High ISO 1600 and Auto ISO Shift
• Compatible with Wide/Tele/Close-up converter lenses and Canon EX Speedlite flashes

It’s a lil bit to the heavier side, though (450g).. and it’s a bulky cam, plus, it eats my batteries. So you have to charge them well. Keep some extra set of batteries with you.. it solves the problem… But I guarantee.. the picture quality is superb. I get good shots from it. My friends love my photos.. and they love my cam too.. With the 4GB memory card, I capture as much as I like. Well.. for an example.. I got 689 shots of our last 3 day trip!! For anybody looking for a camera, I recommend this one. It’s simply superb & amazing… and you’ll love.. love & love it…

THE MONSTER IN YOU....

Talking about monsters! They’re supposed to be mythical creatures that live in fairy tales. What would you picture if I tell you to picture one? You picture a scary looking creature with odd proportions.. Tail… horns.. big eyes… green skin…. MONSTER..!! Well… we don’t like monsters do we?? But what if I tell you that there’s a monster living inside each and every one of you?

It’s not a big deal guys. Sometimes we get mad at each other… Hate.. and you think of wicked things… speak wicked words… and do rude things. That’s the monster in you. He comes out even without you knowing it. Getting pissed and angry is SO not the way you should be. You can’t completely chase your monster away. So.. the only option you have is to control the monster in you. It can do bad things for other people.. to yourself.. and sometimes he will hurt other people’s feelings very badly, if you don’t control him.

I was just thinking about my monster. He’s a weird one. He calms down as the speed he gets angry… and he does and says weird things.(Hmmm..) So… don’t pet your monster… Just let him be. But make sure that you CAN control him…